FTM During a Pandemic

2020 Started off with a bang for us all. For me that bang also included waking up late in January with that urge from my biological clock. Husband and I had spent the past 6 years saying a child was not part of our life plan, but this urge felt overwhelming. Not that I must have a child, but that I had never given myself the opportunity to think about having a child. I sat husband down, and said "I think we should pull the goalie and see if something happens."

Being extremely pragmatic and lovers of research, we each made lists of our concerns. At the time the Pandemic was still this far away thing, (a whole month and a half away!) so it did not make either of our radars. In all honesty our lists were our selfish lists of why we were on the DINK train to begin with. Mine included:

1. Travel - We had become accustomed to 2 international trips a year and many long weekends away

2. Running and Working out - I'm not a gym rat or anything, but I love running half marathons, I hit a workout class 4-5 times a week, and I have been feeling the best about my body that I have ever felt.

3. Quiet time - As an introvert, I had major fears about maintaining peace in my life

4. Spontaneity - The ability to make last minute decisions

Husband's list was similar. And we had other larger non-selfish concerns including: The future of our environment, the cost of raising a child, the size of our small home, the political climate... So we talked about how we make a child fit into our lives and made the decision to "pull the goalie"

Needless to say, we got a positive pregnancy test 1 week into Oregon's Covid lockdown in late March. My instant response was "F*CK!!!" At that point in the Pandemic all I wanted was a big glass of wine every night to dull the despair of the news.. I saw my vision of what my pregnancy would be had to be instantly recalibrated. My "fit pregnancy" was going out the window as the gym closed and my morning sickness had me barely able to get out of bed. I kept thinking "what had I got myself into."

As the second trimester started, warmer weather and finding out that we were expecting a little Dude my mind started to shift. I did still hate being physically pregnant, but I now had energy and focus again. And my list making, planning self who had just had to cancel her trip to Japan needed something to focus on. My three first tackle items were:

1. Traveling with Baby

2. Minimalist Home and Baby

3. Formula Feeding

4. Cloth Diapers

**** I will break these down into additional blogs.***

As of writing this blog entry, I am 37 weeks Pregnant with little D. I am feeling really ready for this next chapter and have spent countless hours researching and preparing and can't wait to start sharing with you all this crazy chapter of my life.